Summer is finally here. I'm sorry I didn't really post last week, but I was a bit busy with exams and projects and things like that. So, for a quick re-cap of my week. Monday I spent the whole afternoon writing my Bible essay that was due Tuesday. Tuesday I took my math exam, which I got a 100 on, and my science exam, which I got a 97 on. Wednesday I took my history exam. Thursday I took my english exam, then I went to Jozie's house and spent the night. I got the first sunburn of the summer and of course I went back to the pool Friday. Now I am home and about to get ready to go to a pool party. I don't think my sunburn is ever going to go away, but at least I'm having fun.

I got to go downtown today and ate at my favorite restaurant, The Atlantic Grill. Then my mom and I went to Ikea and bought a bookcase, a new light, and a bunch of fake flowers including cali lilies, carnations, and my personal favorite poppies! I got quite a bit of reviewing done for finals, but I still have an essay to write and a history review sheet to fill out. :( I enjoy history, but the review sheet has a bunch of things we didn't even learn about on it. My parents are no help cause my mom clearly said history wasn't her thing and my dad thought WWI was fought in Germany. My best friend has disappeared again, I was talking to her Friday night and now she's no where to be found. I didn't have any coffee today so I'm kinda out of it. I have my last week of school tomorrow, well last week for the year. So...yeah...Oh and I have a new favorite song! I Stand, by Idina Menzel. You should check it out! I'm never good at ending these things so I'm just gonna stop typing and post now..so...yeah..

So my plans for the day, a four hour long pool party, got cancelled because Brett, the host, got that virus that's going around it sucks. He moved the party to next weekend and now I have no plans! This is the...I can't even count how many weekends in a row I've done nothing. I need plans! I can't take it anymore! School's about to be out and what do I have to show for the year? Three certificates! No social status upgrade just those three pieces of paper! Ugh! This is torture! Plus I have a paper due Tuesday...yes, the Tuesday during exam week. They aren't supposed to do that! Oh, and I have no more coffee! I drank it all! :( Anyway, I'm being depressing so I'll stop writing now.

So, in my rush to complete a project that my teacher didn't even take up, I forgot to post yesterday. I'm terribly sorry and promise I will make up for it today. It's a Friday, so that's an up, but it rained today...I hate rain when I have to go to school. It's nice when I can do whatever I want, but if I have to go out in it it's just plain miserable. I'm starting dance classes in two weeks :) and next week is exam week :( Oh, and I'm bi-polar with my emoticons so.. :): Bi-polar lol I saw that on facebook and died of laughter. We got our year books yesterday at school and I can honestly say I don't like yearbooks. The pictures never look good and so people then look at them and laugh. :( My picture this year is really bad, my head looks huge! Which I can assure you it's not. I don't even have that many signatures in mine. The guy I used to like signed mine and is kinda freaking me out. I got over him pretty fast after he figured out I liked him. He wouldn't talk to me and avoided me at all cost. Now he's talking to me all the time, he treats me like I'm there (Which was an anomaly before), and today...he hugged me!! I was like O_o and it really creeped me out. Then he borrowed my favorite ring to fake propose to this girl it was really funny. When she took the ring off and chucked it at him he kept holding it for a few minutes the he gave it back. It smelled like his cologne. I'm honestly not sure what his problem is. Or if there is a problem. I don't like him any more, but I think he wants to be my friend, and I'm gonna let him. Well it's raining again, I have finals to study for, and problems to think through. So I now bid you adieu.

So I really want to post something every day, but today I simply have nothing to say...Oh wait yes I do. I just watched the newest episode of Glee and oh my gosh! I can't believe Shelby is Rachel's biological mother! Well actually I can because Idina Menzel and Lea Michele look almost identical! Oh I also watched a few other episodes I had missed and I have a new favorite quote. "I'm like Tinkerbell! I need applause to LIVE!" :) Ok that's pretty much it. So, yeah...

Nothing major happened today, but my mom is really sick, so I was out of school caring for her. My dad was playing in a golf tournament today so I told him I'd take care of her and I let him go play golf. I can't stand to see her this sick and not be able to do a thing about it. I'm not really sure how the rest of the week is going to work because some one has to go stay with my grand parents because my grandfather is having surgery and my grandmother is bed bound because of osteoporosis. My mom was going to, but now she's sick that leaves me and my dad. Some one has to stay here and take care of my mom and the person staying with my grandparents needs to be able to drive. Seeing as I can't drive that leaves my dad meaning I need to stay with my mom. Next week is exam week and I don't have any review guides. Of course my dad probably won't leave me here because he doesn't trust me. So, life is currently hectic. Wow reading over this it sounds really bad, but I can assure you my life isn't falling apart, no one is dying and I will see tomorrow as will the rest of my family. I just needed to write down my feelings. One more thing, I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm looking for a place to get all these issues off my chest. Seeing as I don't keep a diary, that leaves here. If I'm really getting you down give me about two weeks then I'll be more upbeat and more myself. I promise. (and I keep my promises)

Just a picture to sum up my feelings from my last post.

Middle School guys are so annoying. Sure I've heard a million times if they annoy you it means they like you. Yeah right! I think they just annoy you to annoy you. It's driving me crazy! This new guy at school has started spreading rumors about me and I'm sick of it. My friends help calm me down and everything, but it's just so hard to take and not do anything about it. Boys just need to grow up and get a life, because they can't just go around ruining mine and others.

You know it's summer when you can dance in the rain and not freeze to death. :) It is so much fun and I would highly recommend it. I just did and had the time of my life, even if it only lasted for a few minutes. To me it's a way to let go and take what the world throws at you with a smile. I haven't done that in years and it felt amazing to just let loose and have fun doing spins and turns and jumps in the rain. Not to mention singing at the top of your lungs so you can hear yourself over the rain. Its just amazing :)

I recently found a new quote I like. "To be alive is to be vulnerable." (Madeleine L'Engle) That quote was posted on facebook by Mrs. Lee Glover at just the right time for me. I was complaining to my friend the other day about how crying makes me feel so vulnerable (random conversation I know) Then we switched topics to how we are exact opposites. She cries in public quite a bit and likes to stand out and get attention, while I like to act like nothing can hurt me when I'm in public, blend in, and get no attention. Of course saying that was practically challenging her now she wants to make me like attention. (Fun Huh?) So she said that from now on for every casual day we get at school, she's going to pick out my outfit. This should be just dandy.

School House Rock Live Jr. Was absolutely amazing! I had a great time being in it, I actually danced too! :) My solo was Unpack Your Adjectives and was a really annoying song, but a nice challenge. The notes in the second verse are really weird because the music was changed to fit a younger range. My range isn't the same as the range it was made to fit. I enjoyed the challenge and eventually figured out what to do with the song so I could sing it. The dances were amazing! Each song fit into a certain time period almost and the ones that didn't had obvious settings. Our marvelous directors, Mrs. Lee Glover and Mr. Josh Sass, took each song with a time period and created a dance from that time period along with costumes. It was great! I enjoyed The Circulation and Conjunction Junction  the most. The Circulation was a fifties dance so Trent Rowedder, the soloist, was dressed like Elvis and all the girls had baggy oxford shirts and rolled jeans. The finishing touch was an ascot. The dance involved a lot of bunny hopping, hand jiving, and twisting. There was even a fight over "Elvis'" scarf. Conjunction Junction had lots of pick feather boas and Hayden Ingram, the soloist, had a cane and a hat. That was an amazingly fun song to dance to because of the feather boas. :) There is a lot more I could cover, but I don't want to bore anyone.

Things I want to do in life

Be a redhead
Be able to do a split and backhandspring
Be in a band
Be in a movie
Be on a TV show
Be on Broadway
Be vegetarian for one year
Bring someone to Christ
Buy a fancy camera
Compete in a dance competition
Create a fantasy world
Create my own cookie
Create my own drink
Cuddle in bed for a whole day
Decorate my house
Experience zero gravity
Fall in love
Fill an entire journal
Find the perfect little black dress
Go to a concert
Go to Disney with my husband
Go to Spain
Great Barrier Reef Scuba
Grow a field of daisies
Have my own fan club
Help a total stranger
Hike for three days
Impersonate someone famous
Inspire someone to theatre
Learn to play the piano
Learn to ride a horse
Mardi Gras in New Orleans
Model in a print campaign
Name a star
New Years Eve in Times Square
Play my dream role
Publish a book
Read top 10 literary classics
See cherry blossums in Japan
See the Nothern Lights
Sew a dress
Sleep on the beach
Spend the night in a castle
Spontaneous Road Trip
Squash grapes for wine
Stay up for 24 hours

Take ballroom dance lessons
Walk the red carpet
Wear colored contacts
Win a famous award
Write a love song