Ok, so life got faster paced and yet I've still been really bored. I don't have much to say except Emily Brooks and Jozie Lewis are amazing! Last night I just had a complete breakdown for no apparent reason. I was talking to Emily on facebook about it and after I said just about everything I get "Sorry...this is Jarrett. Here's Emily." When I was sure it was Emily I was talking to I asked if I could call her. So, I did and was even worse knowing that I had just told Jarrett my life issues. Well, Emily and I talked for about an hour. When she called back an hour later she said that she a conversation with Jarrett about me. He said that he wasn't going to tell anyone what happened and he told her his story. It turns out the two of us have more in common than either of us thought. I mean he sits at the popular table and I'm the odd-ball at the basketball table (I don't play any sport I just sit there with a friend). He has countless friends, I have three. Every girl in our middle school wants to date him, guys don't talk to me (and if they do it's because we're friends). Come to find out he's gone through a lot of the same issues I have and he just handled it differently. We both wear masks at school and hardly take them off outside of school. It's really hard to grasp that this guy, who I've always thought was my exact opposite, is really so similar to me.

Summer is finally here. I'm sorry I didn't really post last week, but I was a bit busy with exams and projects and things like that. So, for a quick re-cap of my week. Monday I spent the whole afternoon writing my Bible essay that was due Tuesday. Tuesday I took my math exam, which I got a 100 on, and my science exam, which I got a 97 on. Wednesday I took my history exam. Thursday I took my english exam, then I went to Jozie's house and spent the night. I got the first sunburn of the summer and of course I went back to the pool Friday. Now I am home and about to get ready to go to a pool party. I don't think my sunburn is ever going to go away, but at least I'm having fun.

I got to go downtown today and ate at my favorite restaurant, The Atlantic Grill. Then my mom and I went to Ikea and bought a bookcase, a new light, and a bunch of fake flowers including cali lilies, carnations, and my personal favorite poppies! I got quite a bit of reviewing done for finals, but I still have an essay to write and a history review sheet to fill out. :( I enjoy history, but the review sheet has a bunch of things we didn't even learn about on it. My parents are no help cause my mom clearly said history wasn't her thing and my dad thought WWI was fought in Germany. My best friend has disappeared again, I was talking to her Friday night and now she's no where to be found. I didn't have any coffee today so I'm kinda out of it. I have my last week of school tomorrow, well last week for the year. So...yeah...Oh and I have a new favorite song! I Stand, by Idina Menzel. You should check it out! I'm never good at ending these things so I'm just gonna stop typing and post now..so...yeah..

So my plans for the day, a four hour long pool party, got cancelled because Brett, the host, got that virus that's going around it sucks. He moved the party to next weekend and now I have no plans! This is the...I can't even count how many weekends in a row I've done nothing. I need plans! I can't take it anymore! School's about to be out and what do I have to show for the year? Three certificates! No social status upgrade just those three pieces of paper! Ugh! This is torture! Plus I have a paper due Tuesday...yes, the Tuesday during exam week. They aren't supposed to do that! Oh, and I have no more coffee! I drank it all! :( Anyway, I'm being depressing so I'll stop writing now.

So, in my rush to complete a project that my teacher didn't even take up, I forgot to post yesterday. I'm terribly sorry and promise I will make up for it today. It's a Friday, so that's an up, but it rained today...I hate rain when I have to go to school. It's nice when I can do whatever I want, but if I have to go out in it it's just plain miserable. I'm starting dance classes in two weeks :) and next week is exam week :( Oh, and I'm bi-polar with my emoticons so.. :): Bi-polar lol I saw that on facebook and died of laughter. We got our year books yesterday at school and I can honestly say I don't like yearbooks. The pictures never look good and so people then look at them and laugh. :( My picture this year is really bad, my head looks huge! Which I can assure you it's not. I don't even have that many signatures in mine. The guy I used to like signed mine and is kinda freaking me out. I got over him pretty fast after he figured out I liked him. He wouldn't talk to me and avoided me at all cost. Now he's talking to me all the time, he treats me like I'm there (Which was an anomaly before), and today...he hugged me!! I was like O_o and it really creeped me out. Then he borrowed my favorite ring to fake propose to this girl it was really funny. When she took the ring off and chucked it at him he kept holding it for a few minutes the he gave it back. It smelled like his cologne. I'm honestly not sure what his problem is. Or if there is a problem. I don't like him any more, but I think he wants to be my friend, and I'm gonna let him. Well it's raining again, I have finals to study for, and problems to think through. So I now bid you adieu.

So I really want to post something every day, but today I simply have nothing to say...Oh wait yes I do. I just watched the newest episode of Glee and oh my gosh! I can't believe Shelby is Rachel's biological mother! Well actually I can because Idina Menzel and Lea Michele look almost identical! Oh I also watched a few other episodes I had missed and I have a new favorite quote. "I'm like Tinkerbell! I need applause to LIVE!" :) Ok that's pretty much it. So, yeah...

Nothing major happened today, but my mom is really sick, so I was out of school caring for her. My dad was playing in a golf tournament today so I told him I'd take care of her and I let him go play golf. I can't stand to see her this sick and not be able to do a thing about it. I'm not really sure how the rest of the week is going to work because some one has to go stay with my grand parents because my grandfather is having surgery and my grandmother is bed bound because of osteoporosis. My mom was going to, but now she's sick that leaves me and my dad. Some one has to stay here and take care of my mom and the person staying with my grandparents needs to be able to drive. Seeing as I can't drive that leaves my dad meaning I need to stay with my mom. Next week is exam week and I don't have any review guides. Of course my dad probably won't leave me here because he doesn't trust me. So, life is currently hectic. Wow reading over this it sounds really bad, but I can assure you my life isn't falling apart, no one is dying and I will see tomorrow as will the rest of my family. I just needed to write down my feelings. One more thing, I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm looking for a place to get all these issues off my chest. Seeing as I don't keep a diary, that leaves here. If I'm really getting you down give me about two weeks then I'll be more upbeat and more myself. I promise. (and I keep my promises)